blogs are not for emokids

When everything is so crucial

that points start to matter

and arguments become knives

and issues cause disasters

what is there to do?

When things are forced

that they become pointless

and perspectives take no form

but a blurred bird’s-eye view

what is there to do?

When sighs of dissapointment

signal discontentment

and when these signals soar the skies

of never ending sighs

i ask you

will they reach it or die?

Now thickened is the moisture

intensified is the heat

heart beats going faster and louder

making you hear every single beat

like running feet

but yet sound so deep

seems like their shallow

but oops. yes its deep.

is it worth to argue?

And of grudges and pains

their wounds go deeper

as their hearts shut up

their lips say… “I’m fed up.”

and vibration travels

sounds hit the ear

goes straight to the heart

and then causes a tear

where will you go from here?

So just take the fault

it’ll save the riot

fuck the drama

this aint no soap-opera

-To self, from self

One Flaw in Women

By the time the Lord made woman, he was into His sixth day of working overtime. An angel appeared and said, “Why are you spending so much time on this one?”

And the Lord answered, “Have you seen my spec sheet on her? She has to be completely washable, but not plastic, have over 200 movable parts, all replaceable, and able to run on diet Coke and leftovers, have a lap that can hold four children at one time, have a kiss that can cure anything from a scraped knee to a broken heart—and she will do everything with only two hands.”
The angel was astounded at the requirements. “Only two hands! No way! And that’s just on the standard model? That’s too much work for one day. Wait until tomorrow to finish.”

“But I won’t,” the Lord protested. “I am so close to finishing this creation that is so close to my own heart. She already heals herself when she is sick AND can work 18-hour days.”

The angel moved closer and touched the woman. “But you have made her so soft, Lord.” “She is soft,” the Lord agreed, “but I have also made her tough. You have no idea what she can endure or accomplish.”

“Will she be able to think?” asked the angel.

The Lord replied, “Not only will she be able to think, she will be able to reason and negotiate.”

The angel then noticed something, and, reaching out, touched the woman’s cheek. “Oops, it looks like you have a leak in this model. I told you that you were trying to put too much into this one.”

“That’s not a leak,” the Lord corrected, “that’s a tear!”

“What’s the tear for?” the angel asked.

“The Lord said, ’The tear is her way of expressing her joy, her sorrow, her pain, her disappointment, her love, her loneliness, her grief and her pride.”

“The angel was impressed. “You are a genius, Lord. You thought of everything! Woman is truly amazing.”

And she is! Women have strengths that amaze men. They bear hardships, and they carry burdens; but they hold happiness, love and joy. They smile when they want to scream. They sing when they want to cry. They cry when they are happy and laugh when they are nervous.

They fight for what they believe in. They stand up to injustice. They don’t take no for an answer when they believe there is a better solution. They go without so that their family can have. They go to the doctor with a frightened friend. They love unconditionally.

They cry when their children excel and cheer when their friends get awards. They are happy when they hear about a birth or a wedding. Their hearts break when a friend dies. They grieve at the loss of a family member, yet they are strong when they think there is no strength left. They know that a hug and a kiss can heal a broken heart.

Women come in all shapes, sizes and colors. They’ll drive, fly, walk, run, or e-mail you this to show how much they care about you. The heart of a woman is what makes the world keep turning. They bring joy, hope and love. They have compassion and ideals. They give moral support to their family and friends. Women have vital things to say and everything to give.

However, if there is one flaw in women, it is that they forget their worth.

Could there be love after friendship and friendship after love?

When they say love is friendship set on fire

Did they mean it so literally?

I hate discussing about very cliched ideas

Friendship. What is friendship?

is it something that the other party wants to value so much?

that it is the cause why they do not want to take the risk.

or is it something that they use as a very lame alibi not to take the risk.

So is there love after friendship and friendship after love?

Love. What is love?

Love is a many splendored thing

Love is life

Love is blind

Love is something unexplainable

Love is …. What is? love.

Some say, love is taking friendship into a higher level.

that love is mutual

For me. Love is bliss.

Love takes us to places we’ve never been before

Love gets us hurt

Love gives us pain

but

Love makes us happy

Love makes us a person

Love is what i would want to call bliss

So is there friendship after love and love after friendship?

“We are a pack of wolves, we are the sly and the cunning.”

Yes, we are wolves.

we live as a pack

we are more than family

we are humble of our strength

we are discreet of our identities

we need not show our fire

we take silence as our stand

we will leave no one behind

or have all of us behind

for we walk side by side

when a wolf dives in. the pack dives in.

if someone has to die. then they must die.

our enemies do not get the point

that there may be strength in numbers

but we will not flee

if someone must die, he must be killed

if its us who must die

we’ll start digging their graves, beside ours.

“We will stay as a pack, in perpetuity”

“what’s the use believing? hiding? trusting?

in something which is so abstract.

created in the corners of our head?”

everyone who thinks has questions.

questions like what? when? where? who? how? why?

questions that make us search for answers

but.

what is “God”?

where is “God”?

who is “God”?

are the questions that really need to be answered.

does “God” really exist?

is “God” created by our imagination?

does the idea of “God” exist only to keep everything rational or non-chaotic.

I am not like any christian fanatic, christian hypocrite, christian commoner, catholic bitch or any religion.

But yes, I still believe.

or rather.

I have my own belief.

In my view.

“God” is a helpful conscience.

it is an idea that makes us act morally correct.

or makes us follow the rules of society.

or something utilitiarian.

There is no harm in saying that there is no “God” or that there is a “God”

We can never say, unless we try to dig deep in our ever imaginative heads.

Yes, I have a “God”

or my own idea of “God”

But i do not rely on “God”

i rely on myself.

based on experience.

being dependent on “God” or the idea of “God”

gives us nothing.

Hear me, I have experienced it.

“I prayed so much. that I and the one I love. won’t have to leave each other’s side.

after all those prayers, nothing happened. she left me. during the storm.”

people may say that “God” has a reason for everything.

but why did “God” make me lose everything.

—”everything” – for that current moment—

didn’t their “God” hear my prayers?

was their “God” sitting there playing an Xbox 360 while watching everything fall apart?

“Nothing is pre-destined”

we should not watch everything happen without being part of it.

we should not let the idea of “God” make us lose this race.

as believers would say or i guess even the bible, “we are created in the image and likeness of God”

then “God” has a negative side.

they can’t say that because we do negative shit.

we are not created in “God’s” image and likeness.

what if “God” really had a negative side?

then those fucking fanatics should try to understand what we have to say.

I dont hate “God”

I just hate people who are too dependent on the idea of what is so abstract.

Religion only makes us fall apart.

We may seem united.

But only in their so called “spiritual gatherings”

but individually, if we rely on “God” we will never be able to catch up

to recover.

to discover.

to know.

what life is really about.

This blog post.

is not to invite people to become a non-believer, an aethist, an anti-God, an anti-Christ.

but to invite people to be skeptic.

the title itself may sound “negative” but it is not.

it is not saying that there is no “God” or that there is a “God”

there are some “people” who will never get the meaning of the title or even the blog post.

so i will give it myself, for them not to waste any effort in trying to find out what this is about.

“God” is a three letter word.

it is simply trying to give “God” or the idea of “God” a definition.

for those who are offended by this blog-post.

i will never be sorry.

for they should try to understand.

or they should learn to understand.

other’s points of view.

“there is no learning if there is no clashing of ideas.”

“if there is no clashing of ideas. there will never be a fusion of horizon. “